My apologies for the long delay since my last post. I have been in blog-paralysis. Mainly because everything I want to blog about would take an extremely long time to write. So I decided to write about something that has been tugging at my thoughts over the past few days. My internship.
This internship was not what I was expecting. Honestly, I thought I would be marching into the office, with a list of tasks just begging to done, a coffee in one hand and my laptop in the other, ready to sweep my department of their feet. Instead, I was in for a culture shock. Occasionally a day passes so slowly that my eyes are already shutting down by 11am. Sometimes it passes so fast that I barely notice that I have been taking calls non-stop for the past 8 hours. Sometimes I think, “Do I really want this?” It is easy to go through the day, living it while letting yourself overflow with ennui. It is easy to think that no matter what, you can never make a difference. But then I remember that these are just steps that will take me closer to a brighter future. Besides, all that hard work would just make the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow considerably sweeter.
During these 5 months, I have found myself with an extremely tight schedule that included way more office light than actual sunlight. Although on the bright side, there was that elusive freedom from classwork! Aside from all the technical learning, resume developing and coffee runs, I had a ton of fun. And being the new hatchling in the office, I definitely appreciated the titbits of ‘real-world’ advice that everyone offered. Of course, some were undeniably more useful than others.
One important thing I learned was the art of listening. There really is some truth behind the popular phrase “With age comes wisdom”. So no matter how much I wish I could deny it, I should really listen to my mom more. People like it when you listen to them. It shows that you really care about what they think. It shows that you acknowledge them as a person and you do not see them as just another faceless person who is helping you get to where you need to go. No matter how much you can try to convince yourself that you can experience everything on your own, you are always going to need people to help you fill in the gaps. I consider this as a great personal achievement as I had an unhealthy habit of constantly interjecting or talking over someone when they are in the midst of saying something. Simply put, because I thought what I had to say was more important. Now I finally understand that the quieter you are, the more you can hear.
Another valuable lesson I learnt, is that it is entirely okay to be wrong sometimes. Being wrong does not somehow make you less of a person. Some lessons ruthlessly require you to fall flat on your face in order to fully comprehend it. Learning from your mistakes is what matters. However, I grasped that, in order to learn, you have to let go of your pride. You need some sort of rejection in order to grow.
Embarking on an internship really takes you out of your comfort zone. An internship gives you a slice of what is in store for you in the real world. It is one of those exhausting, yet amazing experiences you would not trade for anything else. While my internship was not all fun and games, there is no doubt that I learnt a wealth of lessons. I will definitely miss my wonderful colleagues and the horrid coffee. I will miss getting stressed out. But it was so worth it. As C.S. Lewis once said, “Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My god, do you learn.”
P.s. I’m just adding an extra (unnecessary) line here so that the word count isn’t 666 *makesthesignofthecross*